Here I sit, staring at this blank screen, not knowing what to write, but knowing my return is long overdue.
It is a new year after all and time to let the past slip away....
I lost my Mom unexpectedly just a few months ago and the world stopped, at least for me it did. And man, how pissed I was that the rest of the world continued to move on as if nothing had happened.
How can that be, when the most important woman in my life was now gone??
So the world stood still for me and and I focused more on family and reevaluated what was important to me, because that's what death does. It makes you take a long, hard look in the mirror as your own mortality stares back at you. So many things I learned on that day...I now never let my bad days get the better of me. I tell the people around me how much they mean to me in words or through a simple touch.
I miss her, of course I do. I turned to her for everything. I found myself trying to text her one night, even though a month had already passed. I catch my breath, remembering she is gone...gone.
she was in my dreams, for the first time, a couple of days ago.
And in this dream I got that last hug I was so longing for and I told her how much I love her.
So it's time,
I'm moving on...
Love you forever Mama...